i remember everything i have done cowardly because of my temper.
I remember leaving friends because of rejection, instead of caring for them as a mature part of the family.
I remember being an asshole every time im in love with someone, because im very protective and selfish.
i remember the pain in my soul every time i remember that, because instead of a coward, i could have been a hero, not a movie hero, but an actual one, where im there for others without really interfering with their life.
and as soon as i remember, i mature, later, to realize i am just a child, a lost child who wants to be strong and wants everyone around to feel that strength that everyone can have, and i want that strength for everyone, i want the children of the streets to have shelter, fun and food, not caring for the unknown nor the violence outside because there would not be, because i would be there, protecting them with my life, and i wont be weak, but strong, as i just want them to be happy and free.
I want the older ones to feel in peace and have food, shelter and freedom, i want the unemployed to have guidance and jobs, food and shelter, i want the refugee to have a place and a life to live, i want the injustices of the world, those committed against those who want freedom and equality and a just world to pay for what they did, and pay it hard enough to feel satisfied, because im no longer an angel, nor a demon, i am the hero, a villain and the desires of those who are suffering this life because the world is not fair, and i want it to be fair for those who are right now, hungry, in pain, or in a situation that could break them, so i want to be there for them, i want them to live and laugh, to enjoy life and hope, i want this world to have some good in it.